I was shock receiving the new that actually

you had leave to another world .

The promises i made to you ,will never

ever gonna come true .

There are so many things you wanna 

update me but we save it for my next visit.

When i was about to go visit you the next following 

day to gossip with you , i recieved the news.

There won't be anymore chance to gossip .

I know you been looking for me for years ,

that day u said u miss me . How come so long 

never appear and visit you . I still remembered .

You told me about your leg operation and you ensure 

me that you're perfectly recovering . 

The smile from your face , the way you look at me ,

when we chat , you even touch my hand .

I feel so happy after so many years that you

actually does miss me .

I miss your cooking .

I miss the taste of the foods u cooked .

The taste will forever remembered .

The day i received that news ,

i cried and i couldn't take the fact .

Crying over the phone and begin unstable emotions .

Last day of the wake , the secret between us .

I have told you , remembered to let me dream of you.

I wanna talk to you in my dream .

I controlled myself .

I lost controlled ........

I cried so much ........

Is so hard to accept the fact ...

you actually leave us ...

I think of the thing u told me ,

everything about you .

Why shouldn't i visit u earlier a week before?

I keep blaming myself ...

How i wish u could wake up ..

This could never happen...

I'm just dreaming away ....

The moment they place u at the hall ..

my face is covered with tears ....

hearing sound of crying , 

that make me so heartache ..

no matter how strong a person is ,

they still will cry ..............

so do i.........

On the way back ...

the whole journey ...

i sit alone .....

cry silently....

I breakdown ....

I just couldn't stop my tears.

ah ma ,

you're begin missed by me .

iloveyou......